Reinventing the Life of a Poet in the Modern World

Month: January 2024

Board Game for Poets

This amazing world, huh?

In August my friend Ann told me about a poetry board game called Dead Poets Rise, a game that was not yet for sale. I sat across from Ann practically losing my shit. A board game for poets? I’m a poet! I love board games!

I tried and failed to get in on the funding by sending a message to the game Facebook page. Possibly I was too late, but I did get added to the mailing list. The game went on sale  last fall for $100. This seems like a steep price when you consider games going for $20-40 on Amazon and Target. But I’ve noticed really popular and well-designed games are going for $100 on eBay, games like The Gallerist (about planning art exhibitions at your gallery and rumored to be the hardest strategy game out there, a factoid told to me by one of the clerks at my local board game hangout) and Shakespeare (where similarly you plan out a theatrical show).

This is a very nice game and I can see why it’s listed at that price point. I got a copy as a Christmas gift. Thanks Mom!

The Stuff

It’s a beautiful game in an awesome hexagonal-shaped box. The only flaw is that the box doesn’t close properly and needs a paper strap that’s hard to get on and off to keep it closed so that the contents don’t all spill out when you try to stash it in your closet. The paper is already tearing and will give up the ghost before long and I’ll have to be careful with storage. Right now the game is not being stored with my other board games but with my conspicuous poetry consumption objects.

The cover also acts as a hexagonal board with quotes printed along the edges. There are also juicy elements like a die, three decks of cards, tons of marbles! And a board that looks like Chinese checkers. Also included are mechanical pencils (with little eraser hats and a box of replacement graphite), pads of paper and a sticky notepad for all your writing prompts.

You also need a phone to look up texts and videos as part of the writing prompts.

The instructions

The instructions attempt to explain in words how to set up the board but we had no idea what we should end up with. The instructions need a picture of the board at the start of play. The main issue was that there were too many marbles for the available marble holes and we needed to have a combination of black and green marbles. But how many black marbles did we need? The instructions didn’t say. And should there be more black marbles in games with more players? There were black and green marbles and big shooting marbles (to represent the players). Shooting marbles went into easily marked holes around the edges of the board. We just had to guess.

Instructions should be specific about how many black marbles to “roll out” per number of players and then instruct the players to fill in the rest of the holes with green marbles. Why were there so many bags of marbles in the first place? There was a nice tan bag full of big beautiful shooter marbles, a beautiful black bag with the game logo full of green marbles. Then there was an extra plastic bag of 12 black marbles and another extra plastic bag containing 4 green and 2 black marbles. We never did figure out what all the different bags meant.

The black and green marbles were referred to as common and uncommon marbles which seemed unnecessary. In fact the game had too much new terminology that was maybe intended to create ambience in the game but it ended up just being confusing.

Instead of getting a specially made single die with low numbers, the instructions had a die translator. This annoyed me more than it did Monsieur Big Bang who was playing the game with me.

A word about Monsieur Big Bang, he hates board games. He grew up with bar games like pool and foosball, not that he’s crazy about those games now either (maybe with the exception of pinball). During Covid I got into board games somewhat excitedly. I focused on finding 1) games I felt deprived of as a child like Mystery Date or Go To the Head of the Class, two games my girlfriends had, 2) detective games with map boards and 3) games with pictures of famous art or art-related games (which is a crossover of #1 and the fact that my eldest brother had the game Masterpiece and refused to play it with me for mysterious reasons so I’ve been obsessing about that game ever since.

A word about me: I am notoriously bad at board games. I just like the doo-dads, setting them up, sorting it all out, losing the game and then putting everything back in the box. Just typing all that out makes me want to do it right now. My eldest brother did play games with me from time to time, but only war games like Risk or Battleship, during which he famously won by lying for the whole game and I guessed every single space until it was impossible not to have hit one of his ships by then. I lost by gullibility but then he was 7 years older than me so…I don’t feel too bad about that.

Getting Monsieur Big Bang to play board games is always a struggle, especially these days because he is very busy. And my local friends have their own games they want to play, so I’m collecting quite a stack of unplayed board games. I even bought one called Plunder with a pirate raiding theme (and little tiny ships with attachable masts and cannons) thinking it would entice Monsieur Big Bang (who also used to like Risk) but that was a no go. One of the last games I made him play was the aforementioned Mystery Date. I had a few friends who had this game but they never wanted to play it (also mysteriously). It has such an awesome opening door feature and I was always wanting to play it.

It turns out my girlfriends didn’t want to play this game because it is mind-bogglingly boring and takes too much time around the board before you can ever get a chance to actually open the technological marvel of that door to reveal your date for the night. I recently snared a copy and talked Monsieur Big Bang into playing it and (can you believe it?) I kept losing this game too! He kept getting the ball-room prince and the ski hunk and I kept getting the ‘dud,’ by which the game just means disheveled guy.

Oh yeah, so another annoying thing about Mystery Date is that is was created in the late 1950s and has seriously outdated ideas as to what makes an attractive date for the typical 1970s little girl. Twenty years later and that ‘dud’ looks pretty much like the most attractive guy in the deck and the others look like the duds.

But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m not very good at board game strategy. And this game would prove no exception, professional-poet expertise aside.

Dead Poets Rise has two stacks of Creation and Chaos cards. You use them to write a poem while your working to collect marbles on the board.

Creation cards give you prompts for lines of your poem. Chaos cards sabotage the directions you were headed with those lines.

Examples of Creation cards: use the words always, never, sometimes in your next line, use alliteration with pr, pl, gr, gl sounds, search Google with provided prompts for words, write about a smell in the room, write about two disparate objects in the room, fill in this sentence when I hear ambulances I want to ….

Monsieur Big Bang said at this point the game felt like a Mad Lib.

Examples of sabotage cards: change one of your words to the opposite, change your verb tense, change the past to the future.


Unfortunately, there were quite a few duplicate cards and some triplicate cards. Coming from a family of poker players who can do fancy acrobatic playing-card shuffling, I can tell you I also suck at card shuffling. So I have to shuffle like ten times and still we couldn’t get them shuffled enough to reduce the duplicates  We also caught a typo in the word ‘corresponds’ in one of the cards.

Hopefully these things will get rectified. All the prompts should be original.

We played the short game for two people. The object is to roll the die and move across the board collecting a certain amount of black and green marbles. Once you have all your marbles you can move into the center area of play called The Sphynx Challenge.

Each turn also draws Creation and Chaos cards that help each player create a poem in the style of one of the “dead poets,” obscure poets that comprise another, most interesting deck.

You actually start things off with this dead poet deck, which includes separate little packs containing a handful of cards each for one obscure poet. At the beginning of the game, you all agree on the poet and everyone pulls a poet card with some biography and samples of poems. The players also choose a random theme from a list in the instructions. You use the theme and the poetry samples to write “in the style” of the poet you are attempting to “resurrect.”

It sounds more complicated than it is.

The back of the dead poet packs have biographical information and each player gets one of cards with snippets of their poems on it. These are the cards we drew:

 

By the time of The Sphynx Challenge at the end, you have pretty much a completed poem and the challenge is to read one line of your “fake” poem lines and two lines of the real poet’s poem and others have to guess which line is yours.

We each guessed each other’s fake lines.

In fact, Monsieur Big Bang won on the technicality that he was the first to make it to the Sphynx area with is big marble. And our decision to have him guess my fake line was just courtesy play.

The punishment for losing the Sphynx challenge seemed too much for the short version of the game (three green marbles) but then again your marbles don’t win you the game so who cares.

The Sphynx challenge introduced the elements of points which seemed sudden and out of place and the game provided no material to track these sudden points (grab a piece of paper). It felt like an after-thought, an additional confusion. And yet those points would determine the winner as people won or lost the challenge. Then again, it was also possible we weren’t playing it right. The whole points layer was confusing.

At the end of the game, we felt like the game was missing something and I couldn’t articulate it. The box had all the do-dads, after all.

Monsieur Big Bang had some ideas though. He said you could almost dispense with the board play and use the card prompts for writing exercises, like for students, friends or just playing alone. He said it was lacking a sense of a game’s highs and lows. There was no real feel of competition. And so we discussed board games that lacked this competition element and yet were still fun, like the Encanto movie board game. In that game you work together against a clock to save the house. It’s still fun but not cut-throat.

My friend Julie recently gave me a very Dungeon and Dragons like haunted house game, Betrayal at House on the Hill, (which I haven’t found anyone to play with yet), and the first half of that game is cooperative to set up the board pieces and the second half of the game, once the monsters get tripped off, is competing against a common monster and against each other.

Dead Poets Rise did feel like a writing exercise more than a game. I also didn’t understand the rationale for collecting the marbles except to extend our writing time with the prompt cards. The game does seem to needs more conflict, if not against each other than with some external element.

Monsieur Big Bang also felt the game didn’t have enough person-to-person contact. And you didn’t feel invested because there wasn’t enough drama, which prompted a retelling of the the joke I learned at Sarah Lawrence, “why are poets (and thus poetry board games) so cut throat? Because the stakes are so low.”

The stakes felt very low for this game. And maybe that’s where game drama lives.

The final imposter challenge did seem most satisfying at the end and maybe that could be worked into  regular game play. Considering it was one of the most fun aspects of the game, it was disappointing that the first person to enter the final Sphynx challenge area quickly won the game before anybody else could experience the fun of being an impostor.

I also really liked discovering, if not feeling like I fully “resurrected,” the dead poet. Our poet was Celia Dropkin and our theme was “the war within.” I had never heard of this Russian-born Yiddish poet who immigrated to New York City at the turn of the century (and passed away in the 1950s) so that was great fun for me (more so than for the non-poet-player).

Although there are some fixes needed, I do want to emphasize it’s a fun box of beautiful things and I will be playing it again and showing it to other poets.

My resulting poem turned out like this:

Untitled (the task of adding a title could be added to the play somehow)

Maybe my mother’s yearning
is never in me like conception (Not a bad start)
and the silence of the Gods gone quiet
like all the fires of the world going out,
grounded, groused and groveling for air. (What a mess of a run-on!)
And to survive I strive to organize. (True, dat)
When I hear ambulance I want to
melt into the water like ground (Good prompt to switch those words)
where the italicized roots of Latin are buried. (I had to change roots to monks. Boo.)
And the world revolves on the sight of glass
and dollars and dead poets. (I like the end)

Why Do I Write?

Sometimes when I need to find a page quickly on my website and I don’t know where it is I’ll just google it. Like “Mary McCray NaPoWriMo.” It’s faster than browsing around for things. I learned this trick at ICANN because the site has tens of thousands of pages (full transparency, you know).

If I search my name on Bing, that search engine asks me very politely “are you sure you don’t mean porn star Marie McCray?”

If I search my name on Yahoo!, that engine just gives me results for porn star Marie McCray.  (“Surely that’s what you want, right?”)

If I search my name on Google (and this is why Google is king, I guess), I get a handy information card to the right that actually returns Me. But Google has decided for some reason that I’m a Journalist.  Which is very funny because I’ve never written a piece of professional journalism in my life, unless you count those old reviews on Ape Culture (which had the grand distinction of not being very good).

I can see now that I need to get new pictures. One of the things I dread doing (more on that below).

I have some good friends on the East Coast who I saw last August. They’re a couple: one is a writer/poet and the other is a musician. I’ve known them since back in the Sarah Lawrence days.  We’ve had some great conversations over the years about being artists and I remember touring the lair of the musician last summer and the two of us got to musing about why we keep working even though we haven’t “succeeded” and how we would still keep doing it whether we were successful or not. Because we love the doing part and we probably couldn’t stop even if we tried.

I figure feeling this way helps us forego the constant assessments of our value. It’s more about what we value. But this doesn’t make it easy.

It’s tough out there. I know three graphic designers (web and print) who struggle to find work because the Internet has decimated their opportunities, just as it has for writers.

But often I have to remind myself that for poets, it’s been this way for about 100 years already. We were once on top of this culture heap, but then dime-store novels sent us packing; and then motion pictures arrived to soak up everyone’s leisure time. And then TV came. And then the computer games. And then the Internet.

And motion pictures were far from the first disruption to human kind. The printing press put those monks out of business, which was a shame because apparently they were drawing little hidden penises in everything).

Media change is relentless. And we find ourselves in the middle of yet another disruption because annoying human beings keep inventing things like stone tools.

But considering there are still thousands of poets writing and reading poetry even though it’s been 100 years of deeper and deeper losses, we must be working with a different rubric of success. But if you want to join the Irrelevant-Media club, you know where we are. We keep on like dysfunctional little windups.

Alternatively, I know two writers, (one of them lives in my house), who, if there’s no money or promise of money down the line,  they do not write. Period.

Another close friend I spoke to recently works in a medium that I would consider mostly a labor of love. And for years they’ve been doing it just because they love doing it, they said. Recently, this changed to working for “something big,” a term that is a vestige of this person’s former life in Show Business.

It’s such a commonly ringing bell lately, I can’t help but think that, despite what anybody says, fame and money are what everybody wants.

Sometimes I even doubt myself. I mean even those monks wanted to be remembered by someone, otherwise they wouldn’t have been drawing all those funny little penises in all those old books.

I’ve been reading an essay about Robert Frost over the last few days, “Robert Frost and Tradition” by Siobhan Phillips.” Phillips says “Frost courted fame on the widest scale and became by some measures the most well-known English-language poet of the twentieth century.”

Frost said, “there is a kind of success called ‘of esteem’ and it butters no parsnips.”

And esteem buys you no butter, that’s for sure. You can’t argue with that.

I have another visual artist friend I’ve know a very long time, a very talented artist, but this person has what I would call a  problem of self-motivation and over the decades hasn’t produced very much. Recently I had dinner with this person and they said apropos of nothing, “I really thought I would be famous by now.” I had some very unfriendly thoughts at that point and then when I got my sea legs again I said, “So how is Becky?”

I mean I have problems of my own but I have some self-awareness about it. For example, I also another friend who gives good advise about networking: go out and hob-knob with other poets (oy!), join poetry groups (no), give readings (good lord!), network through teaching (I’ve seen that and I consider it a Faustian bargain). I didn’t want to do any of that. And that’s on me. I like to think of it as a handshake with mediocrity.

I’m also been reading a poetry anthology sprinkled with rediscovered poets going back to the Colonial era, poets who never published in their lifetimes but are being uncovered even now like hidden treasures. And I think how nice that sounds to me sometimes. You get the fame if not the money and you don’t have to deal with any of the bullshit, like poetry grunts at public poetry readings. (Thank you to Ann who reminded me I sent her that poem many years ago and completely forgot about it.)

But I’ve been thinking more deeply right now about where this ambivalence around success comes from. And like most things, it probably resides in my early childhood experiences, particularly with bullies. I grew up in a place where you would be a target if you won or if you lost. So the safe spot was right in the middle. When I learned what grey rocking was I was like Yes! I am a master of grey rocking. I imagine a little black belt around my little inner grey rock. Literary grey rocking. It’s perfect.

Robert Frost also wrote a great deal about futility, from the futility of building a fence to the futility of conceiving a child (he lost three, arguably four). However, he saw no futility in poetry. He famously said,  “every poem is a momentary stay against the confusion of the world.” And how does one monetize that?

I was writing something the other day and I referenced the game Mousetrap. I played this game with my friends Diana and Lillian when we were kids. We didn’t even bother playing the game. We just set up the mousetrap and set it in motion to see all the ways it wouldn’t work. Due to small manufacturing mistakes, the contraption rarely did work. In fact, it was an exciting miracle if it ever did.

I started writing for reasons that are not all that flattering to me. It was over a boy, of course.

You know that thing you do when you find out somebody you like enjoys some activity or experience and so you try to get into that thing so that you can build a kind of bridge with that person?

I have a bad history of these bad ideas around boys. But in this particular case, through a series of happy and sad Mousetrap-like events, I started writing poems which randomly sent in play a boot kicking a yellow bucket, knocking out a silver rolling ball down a green staircase and through the red slide, knocking the green man off the blue diving board and into the yellow tub which shakes down the red mousetrap. And here I find myself 39 years later having written many hundreds of miraculous poems.

When I first started writing, I firmly believed you had to be a dead poet to be famous poet. (I didn’t know any but dead ones.) And misguided by that belief, I did not stop writing. I just lowered by expectations.

Real, real low.

Of course, there are many very well-known poets, but nobody in my immediate family would be able to tell you the name of a single one.

It’s all relative.

Romanticism idealized both eschewing fame and expecting it. And many of us are stuck there in that perplexing purgatory.

In the forward to Margaret Atwood’s book Negotiating with the Dead, a Writer on Writing she lists two full pages of reasons why writers write including some really funny examples:

  • To show those bastards
  • To delight and instruct
  • Or else I would die!
  • Because I didn’t want a job
  • To make myself seem more interesting than I was
  • To attract the love of a beautiful woman
  • To rectify a miserable childhood
  • To serve art
  • To serve history
  • To make a name that would survive my death
  • To experiment
  • To expose appalling wrongs or atrocities
  • To give back

There’s plenty more. Later in chapter three, entitled “Dedication,” Atwood talks about the Lewis Hyde book The Gift: Imagination and the Erotic Life  and quotes Hyde to say, “any equation that tries to connect literary value and money is juggling apples and oranges.”

Atwood talks about economic exchange versus gift exchange. She says

“the part of any poem or novel that makes it a work of art doesn’t derive it’s value from the realm of market exchange. It comes from the realm of gift, which has altogether different modes of operating. A gift is not weighted and measured, nor can it be bought. It can’t be expected or demanded; rather it is granted, or else not. In theological terms, it is grace,  proceeding from the fullness of being.”

She says, “There are four ways of arranging literary worth and money: good books that make money; good books that don’t make money; bad books that make money; bad books that don’t make money.”

So obvious it sounds ridiculous.

According to Hyde, the serious artist would be well advised to acquire an agent who can mediate between the realm of art and the realm of money….he may then remain modestly apart….Lacking such protection, he will have to maintain a very firm division in his own soul.”

Poets are obviously lacking such protection. If you’re a writer of privilege, as I am (I have a safety net or two), this is probably an easier “division of the soul.” Being a poet is a dangerous vocation, being an artist is a a risky vocation if you need that money.

Each of us in on a different path with different needs and opportunities.

Now all this is fully granting how awfully depressing it is when you speak through art and no one responds or responds in the right number of YouTube views or the response is confusing and ambiguous or your efforts don’t move the mountain of the muse itself. I know plenty of artists who tried for a while and then stopped.

And then some mediums of art cost more money than others. Films require big outlays, for example.

But then I think of a lifetime of effort I’ve spent writing many hundreds of poems, paying off a gigantic loan to have been able to go to Sarah Lawrence College (still not done yet).

I’ve never had a fortune in money, but I’ve spent the Imperial Palace in time. And how do you qualify that?

And it was my idea. Am I due a reward for it? Nobody came to me and asked me to do it.

“We really need this poem, Mary.”

I can’t get back this whole life. Nor would I want to. For me my art is like my love. Given freely or it has no value at all. No exchange required.

But then I think fundamentally I’m working under the paradigm of the gift exchange and not the market exchange. Of course I would like to be read, but on a much lesser scale of readership that those who are working under the market exchange.

It’s like throwing parties. My parties are very small. They’re like the parties in the Katharine Hepburn/Cary Grant movie Holiday (one of my favorite things ever). I feel like I’m essentially the Mrs. Potter character trying to find that very small party beyond the very big one, the more electric one on the third floor with all the eccentric and funny screwballs: Johnny, Linda, Professor Nick and Ned. Those people seeking “of esteem” over the blinding bling downstairs, the people who make due with imaginary butter on their enchanting parsnips.

New Learning Opportunities in 2024

I’ve been meaning to write about this for months. But I wanted to finish the PBS series Poetry in America first so I could give a complete review of it. But my library copy of Season 1 stopped working halfway through. Then I purchased a DVD from Amazon and that DVD stopped working half way through, too, and so I returned it for a replacement. And it happened again!

All the Poetry in  America DVDs for season 1 seem to be defective and they’re still selling them! So I went over to the PBS app and signed up for the $5-a-month-member to see the rest of Season 1 and found out there was a Season 3! Sweet!

Anyway, all this took time to work through.

Every since I’ve run out of poetry MOOCs (those free Massive Open Online Classes) and burned through a year’s worth of literary celebrities on MasterClass, I’ve been searching for online literary education again. Happily, last year I found it in two places.

The Smithsonian Associates Online Courses

I think I purchased Christmas cards from MOMA one year and then started getting a stream of museum catalogues (not an unpleasant thing) and one of them was just for online, live courses offered from the Smithsonian.

These are great courses offered in all subjects and taught by some pretty respectable teachers. I haven’t had a bad experience yet…except negotiating their website which is hard to log on to, hard to change the password for, and there’s no literature or book category per se. But you can search “literature” and this bring up all the upcoming lit courses.

I also appreciate that the courses are priced well for the time provided, about 25-35 dollars per 1.5-2 hours. This is much more amenable than $50 to $100 for a single course or a yearly subscription contract. Price point has been an ongoing issue for me. It’s just a shame you can’t go back and stream older courses. What an easy money maker for the Smithsonian that would be.

The first class I took was on Moby Dick (a book I still haven’t read and just unsuccessful pitched to my Difficult Reading Book group), a course taught by Samuel Otter, a professor out of U. of California Berkeley. He had helpful suggestions like reading the chapters out of order. He also put the book in the context of Herman Melville’s life to illustrate how unsuccessful the book was at the time. He discussed the Melville conference in Japan and how influential the book’s heroic monster has been to monster movies like Godzilla.  He talked about the idea of “the world in the whale” and how a novel can “swallow everything.” In the Q&A they addressed how the book fit in with his other works, Nathaniel Hawthorne’s influence on the book. Interesting quotes from the class: “This book seems to know how you feel when you read it.”

I also took “Thoreau on Work” because I didn’t know much about Henry David Thoreau either. John Kaag and Jonathan van Belle, two philosophers who wrote a book on Thoreau’s attitudes currently resonating with the culture of quiet quitting, co-ran the session. They also recommended the Jennifer O’Dell Book, “How to Do Nothing” and talked about fulfilling work and privilege (interestingly Thoreau didn’t have much of that and did manual labor most of his life) and Thoreau’s idea of having “work that keeps your mind free” which resonated with me and how I’ve chosen my day jobs in this life.

I really enjoyed the discussion about plants and bloom times versus living a life beholden to mechanical clocks and what time has come to mean for us, doing work that you can take pride in (at least some of the time) and how some work leads men to “live lives of quiet desperation” (Thoreau’s words). They also lightly covered the idea of Original Affluence and we see a lot of young people doing this, scaling down their needs so they can keep work to 40 hours or less.

There was a three part series called Art and Literature and I missed the first one. The second one was on William Blake, given by Jack Dee, an art historian, who explained the time and work of William Blake and how his illustrations intersected with the poems in Songs of Innocence and Experience. We studied these poems in many physical classes throughout high school and college and no teacher (that I can remember)  spent time going through the illustration for each one and how it communicated back to the language of the poem. Dee also talked about how Blake’s wife was his collaborator and what she contributed.

The other session I caught was called Picasso and Stein, given by David Garriff. This was also a facinating dive into Gertrude Stein and her relationship with Pablo Picasso. The course suggested a long New Yorker article on the politics of Stein that got me reading Lifting Belly  and The Alice B. Tolklas Cook Book.

These classes above were about an hour and a half and cost about $35 for non-members and $30 for members. The more expensive classes either went for an hour and a half over multiple days or were classes that lasted 3-5 hours.

Reading Faulkner: Chronicler of the Deep South, taught by Michael Gorra of Smith College, was a dream come true. Ever since hearing about the Faulkner class at Notre Dame I’ve been thinking about trying to finagle my way into such a thing. This was a class with three sessions (each on a book) over three months, one book a month (so you could read along). First book was The Sound and the Fury (a book I once read with zero understanding of what I was reading). After this session, I went back and reread it with much more understanding and appreciation for not only the novel’s stylistic experiments and narrative experiments but for telling a story about a woman through the voices of her brothers. Like for Moby Dick, none of Faulkner’s novels were successful (as we think of them today). Unlike Melville, Faulkner was unconcerned about this.

The next Faulker book we read was Light in August, one of my favorite books period. My best college paper, in fact, was on Light in AugustI loved the novel even more after taking this class (even got a poem out of it). The last novel we read was Absalom, Absalom! which I haven’t yet read, but it’s a book that was also referenced in the Poetry in America, season 3 as an important part of an amazing Evie Shockley poem so I’m looking forward to starting on it.

I also attended a half-day Saturday class on The Russian Novel: Anna Karenina (which I’ve read) and The Brothers Karamazov (which I haven’t) given by Joseph Luzzi from Bard College. I accidentally slept through the first hour of the class. But luckily you get 48 hours to rewatch any recorded sessions. This was the professor who tipped me off to the Cambridge Companion books for authors and art forms.

I took another Luzzi class, one of his high school revisited series, for The Great Gatsbywhich prompted me to read a few other F. Scott Fitzgerald novels (now sitting in a stack by my bed, including The Beautiful and Dammed which I’m reading as we speak).

Another interesting thing about this class was the handsome professor. During one of his Q&As at the end of the classes, one devotee suggested (with fluttering eyes you could entirely imagine) that Luzzi should start a podcast. In mild frustration he insisted that he was too busy with writing books, running his online book club, teaching and “I have a family!”

The most recent course I took was on Edgar Allan Poe: Love, Loss and Invention, taught by writer Robert Morgan, a class that worked well to overturn the myths of this most famously mythologized writer. This was less of a lecture than Morgan reading from a paper. So that felt kind of stilted, but he knew what he was talking about so that mitigated the annoyance.

Coming up I’m taking the class Cinderella: Beyond Bippidy Boppidy Boo (tonight, actually) and Wuthering Heights and Invisible Man, again with the handsome Joseph Luzzi as part of his High School Revisited series.

Poetry in America

This PBS show is another, little-known but excellent source for literary continuing ed that I loooved.

The half-hour series was hosted by Elisa New of the aforementioned Harvard poetry MOOCs. In fact, I vaguely remember her talking about filming such a new show poems exploring aspects of America back when I was watching one of those final Harvard MOOCs.

The production values, the ingenuity in illustrating the poems, the wonderful animations, the travels to the places of the poems, the pathos of the shows, and the stellar guest rosters of not only literary but subject-matter experts, just really, really superb and well worth the price of the one or two months of membership to PBS it might cost you to watch all three seasons.

Here are the poems and poet episodes listed below. I have to say, the episodes I was least interested in watching at first were probably the ones I enjoyed the most.

Season 1:

  1. “I Cannot Dance Upon My Toes” by Emily Dickinson exploring the idea of fame.
  2.  “Fast Break” by Edward Hirsh about American sports and male bonding (I loved this one and I don’t really like sports).
  3.  “Those Winter Sundays” by Robert Hayden talking about “the black sonnet,” the blues sonnet.
  4. “Hymn” and “Hum Bom!” by Allen Ginsberg about God and The Bomb.
  5. “Skyscraper” by  Carl Sandberg about capitalism and the idea of the city.
  6. “Harlem” by Langston Hughes about ruined dreams.
  7.   “Musée des Beaux Arts” by W. H. Auden about suffering and war.
  8. “Shirt” by Robert Pinsky about factory labor, particularly New York City garment labor.
  9. “To Prisoners” by Gwendolyn Brooks about prison (this one was very moving, too).
  10. “The Grey Heron” by Galway Kinnell about nature.
  11. “New York State of Mind” by Nas about Rap music as poetry (a must see episode).
  12. “The New Colossus” by Emma Lazarus about the immigrant experience (which included a guest singer I really like, Russian immigrant Regina Spektor).

These are available on DVD but good luck finding a playable copy of episodes 7-12.

Season 2:

  1. “Urban Love Poem” by Marilyn Chen about the immigrant experience.
  2. “One  Art” by Elizabeth Bishop” about grief.
  3. “The Fish” by Marianne Moore about close observation.
  4. “This Your Home Now” by Mark Doty about male barbershops and AIDS (I looooved this one).
  5. “Finishing the Hat” by Stephen Sondheim from the musical Sunday in the Park with George about French painter Georges Seurat and the creative process. (I also love how this show incorporates music into its definition of poetry. See #11 above.)
  6. “You and I Are Disappearing” by Yusef Komunyakaa about the Vietnam War. (Another one of my unexpected favorites on how to write about war).
  7. “This Is Just to Say” by William Carlos Williams about marriage.
  8. “Song of Myself” by Walt Whitman about the ideals and multiplicity of America.

These are available on DVD and I had no issues with Season 2.

Season 3:

  1. “Sonnet IV” by Edna St. Vincent Millay about turning upside down the classic love sonnet.
  2. Two southwest poems, “Bear Fat” by Chickasaw poet Linda Hogan and “Rabbits and Fire” by Mexican-American poet Alberto Rios — both about storytelling and tragedy in the southwest.
  3. Motherhood poems by Sharon Olds (“The Language of the Brag”) and Bernadette Mayer (“The Desires of Mothers to Please Others in Letters”) – another amazing episode, “The Language of the Brag” ended up being one of my favorite new finds.
  4. “Mending Wall” by Robert Frost about when walls work and when they don’t work.
  5. “you can say that again, billie” by Evie Shockley about blues, humor, racism in the American South, (another one of my favorite episodes).
  6. “Cascadella Falls” by A.R. Ammons (also showcasing his paintings) about geologic time.
  7. “Looking for the Gulf Motel” by Richard Blanco about the nostalgia of a lost youth, especially with immigrants for their homeland as  places left behind.
  8. “The Wound-Dresser” by Walt Whitman about the Civil War.

I have loved every minute of these classes and TV shows. To find out more information about them, visit:

Short Story Challenge No.1

So I haven’t been posting on Big Bang Poetry for a while. My other blog kind of blew up and took over the end of last year.

But I’ve been saving up some posts for this blog. This year I have cut back my day-job hours in order to have more time for writing projects. I also embarked on a challenge with a friend of mine who hasn’t been writing as much as she’d like. I thought if we could gamify the writing of a short story, it would help encourage writing time on her side and help me get out of my truth/fiction dichotomy over on my side.

So I located two sets of storytelling game cards last year, The Storymatic and Synapsis (both from Storymatic Studios).

(For Christmas my friend Natalie also gave me Ouisi cards which have a storytelling component to them and I’m using those separately this year).

Anyway, I composed some new game rules to bring the two games together (The Storymatic and Synapsis) but my friend unfortunately had a personal issue come up this month and she won’t be able to join in with the first story.

I decided to continue on and thought it would be interesting to mark out the process and progress here. Feel free to join in with the challenge if you feel so compelled.

The main point of the cards is to not overthink your ideas, to instead just blurt it out. You can overthink it plenty later.

Step one was to pull one pink card to get our story theme (or milieux it seems more like) and three gray and blue cards to assemble an opening sentence.

So our pink card sets us up in a young adult novel. Since this is a short story, that just means our main character should be a young-adult character. Mine is named Gerald and he’s 13.

We use the cards on the right to string together a first sentence. Mine turns out to be: “As a whistleblower, Gerald looked more like a ceasefire.” (Gives Gerald a little bit of character there,)

Then we pulled some “Ask” cards to help further define our story:

  1. What happens in the scene of your first sentence: Gerald is trying to report some offenses of the French teacher to the school principal and he backs down and ends up defending him instead.
  2. When/where does the story take place: 1980s suburbs in the general U.S.
  3. What does the main character want more than anything: the love and respect of all the girls, or a girl (whichever comes first).

Then we pull four more cards: two gold cards are to further define the character’s wants or desires, the other two copper cards give us the obstacles our character must face in the story as he works toward getting what he wants.

So besides girls, Gerald also wants to become a future president as well as a person who says yes to everything. (Pretty good goals as they go but I can already tell Gerald is the kind of person who rarely says yes to anything).

A fever and a frozen slice of his Uncle’s wedding cake will have to thwart him on his journey to happiness.

We get two months to write a short story with these guideposts.

Here we go…

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